So much wasted time. I tried, yet clearly effort was always misdirected. Could anyone have shown me the way or is that just a lie I tell myself? Wishful thinking? Vain hope that things at least could have turned out differently? Not that it matters now...nor did it really matter then, ironically enough. The one truth I have found is that there is but one thing in life that matters. The only aspect of this life that has any lasting value is how we have influenced those we have come into contact with while on this journey. The kicker is, the one who truly misses out on the benefits of benevolent actions never performed; mercy, forgiveness, a he